Missed Again

I go to church every Sunday morning (unless we are sick or out of town). There is an evening service and a Wednesday night service. We used to go to all three...but hubby started to have to work the occasional Sunday afternoon and had meetings at work every Wednesday night.

It's so easy to get into a habit of not doing something. Much easier to not than to. So I had already decided that I was going to go tonight because I've not gone in awhile and I feel the pull (God talks to us with these little nudges and tugs). I also wanted to just be there to be in God's house...

And then about 5 pm I started to get a headache. Not too bad. I've had worse... I took a shower, got dressed and 'fixed' my hair...then about 6:30- 15 minutes before leaving- my head started pounding and my stomach started rolling. I thought I could stand it... but I couldn't.

I missed going again. I posted yesterday about how I feel that God demands our whole life, and here I am failing/falling behind...again. My stomach is still pitching. My eyes are about just slits. (No, the computer doesn't really bother me- I don't have to move anything but my hands...but I can't drive and it's horrible to walk from room to room).

Sigh, I know that part of my feeling of 'failure' is because I've disappointed those in my church again. Granted, they are not who I should be concerned about in this matter. And honestly, I don't know why I even took the trouble to type out this post...It is only my thoughts.

Since I missed again, I will have to make it up: I'm going to go to bed and be close to God by reading His Word and praying. I never do enough of either.